Okay . Guess what ?! It's th 15th today . Hahaha . Woke up in th morning with a wide smile . I miss him badly . I miss his smile . Hahaha . & Now , I'm smiling again . Huhu . In that dream , we are now 9 months together ? Woah . I miss that dream laa sehy . Who doesn't ? If you were to be in my situation and you had th same sweet dream as mine , you won't be able to forget it . It's an awesome dream , you know . *cut* Hahaha . I shall stop here now laa .

Well . Yesterday , had long long long chat with Shuhadah . It was awesome okay . Irritate her is all I does . That's me ! Hehe . Awwh . So cute sia me . & Oh , I succeeded in making her smile and laugh alone at late night . Actually , everytime uh . We were talking craps , you know . Not forgetting , I also scared her by asking her to look at her sides . And she goes with her scared first . I don't know how she looks at that point of time but I know she's scared . Hahaha . Sorry uh sis . Favourite uh . & It's fun though . Love ya !

Wait ! Just now , exactly at 11.30pm , he turned me down and I cried on th spot . Haish . I won't state here why but I'm totally sad by what he said . Whatever it is , I don't hate him after what was said by him earlier . Tapi , sad tetap sad laa kan . Who won't be hurt ?! I'm wondering why is he behaving like this . I only wanted a normal friendship between me , my friend and him . Only that . And how can he say no ?! {I already state why I'm sad.} Not forgetting , he turned me down on this date , 15th March 2011 . I repeat , FIFTEENTH ! My favourite number . I'm sad / mad with him . Argh . Just forget it .
I'm scared to fall in love again . I'm hurt . I shall now wait for my age to be matured enough and my true love will come . By th age of 21 ? For now , this will be th last . I still love you though . 


How I wish I had a best guy friend now . Who would quickly call me up and asked me why am I crying and why am I sad. Who would lend me his listening ear . Who would bring me to his arm and cool myself down . Who would screw those who made me sad . Who would want to be by my side . Who would always try his best to cheer me up , make me smile , make me laugh when he actually knows that I'm totally sad . Who would not give up with me . Who would always be strong enough to entertain my attitude . Who would clench his fist when he knows who made me cry/sad and feel like punching that someone .  Where his face would turn sad seeing I'm sad . Which people would misunderstood our relationship . How I wish . ):

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